Crisis of faith for the faithless?

A few days ago, a writer who's talent I greatly admire posted a helpful list ofways to write a good summary for a story. Actually, it was more like a list of things to avoid and , as I read the list, I realized I'd committed most of the 'sins' at one point or other. Ok, I told myself, I'd try and do better in the future. Then this writer suggested that good writers should be compete with themselves as a way to improve their skills. Ok...well, no. I didn't start writing, at htis late point in my life to compete with myself! I did it because another great writer encouraged me to give it a whirl...he told me not to be intimidated by anyone, just have fun telling the story you want to tell and  I thought, sure, why not. I've been having a blast and I don't want to compete with anyone, myself included. Why should I? Do I want to get better as a writer? Sure I do but I don't think I need to compete with myself to do that. Hell, six days a week, 9 to 10 hours a day I'm selling tires and putting them on and that wears me out. Writing is supposed to be fun. I'm under no delusions that this will ever be more than something I do to unwind and the fact that people seem to enjoy some of my work is just an added bonus.
 The same author who suggested that a writer should compete with themself also suggested that a good author would provide good 'Author's notes'...mine aren't good...hell, they're just me rambling about whatever twaddle happens to be in my head when I've finished a chapter...so, I guess I see where that leaves me when such important things are considered...a writer who knows his limitations...and knows that he's never gonna be great...hell, I think I'd settle for good...and I'm sorry that having 'A/N's' that aren't glowing examples of 'goodness' makes me less of an author...hell, I'm barely a scribbler. Sure, I color outside the lines but does it really matter if I'm having fun? Do my non-sterling summaries and my rambling A/N's make me less of a writer? I'm not sure...because, evidently, according to an author I admire, shortcomings in those categories may indeed make me...less.
 Hell, I'm sitting here looking at a couple of almost complete chapters and notes for maor and I'm not sure if I want to take the time to post 'em....since I'm not out to compete with myself, maybe I should just say fuck it...like the title of the blog says...A crisis of faith for the faithless(me)...not sure what I'll do...and worse, not sure if it matters.                 JT